why me

Okay yes I am everyone says i am its because all my life i didn't think anyone cared about me yes even my parents. I have no siblings, so i've always been by myself. I sucked. I always had to act perfect for everyone do what everyone says for me to do. Then one day i woke up and stopped that feeling especially after finding out that there were guys out there that found me attractive. Until i slept with them after a few times then that was it they wanted me as a fuck friend. That hurt so from that day i promised myself no more falling in love cause i fall hard and get hurt easily. Then one day i found a guy who was interested into more than just sex. He liked my personality. I told him it would talke awhile before i could fall in love well it didn't take to long cause he's my life now. He's everything to me. At times i think he's getting sick of me cause i want to be close to him. I never had that i love that feeling. Its the most amazing feelings. Yes i want to give him some space but how can i when i have no car and no real home. I don't want to drive him away as like i said he's my life he's my reason for living.