My feelings

Ok not cool. Something is wronge. I have had a great time in my life then out of the blue it becomes shitty. I'm getting mixed emotions. I'm so in love its. I'm so in love that its hurting. i want to be with my one true love but it seems as if he's trying to back off now that he has teh freedom he's off house arrest. I promised myseld i'd never feeling this way again but how can i when i love this guy to death. I fell hard in love with this guy. He's my life. If he is lossing interst in me then i have nothing left. I know this is fucked up but what do you do. I'm an emotional reck i can't stand not being near him. Hearing his voice looking at his eyes and smile. He makes me glow with happiness.